Growing Out my Relaxer: A walk down Memory Mane.
Deciding to cut it all off was very tough!!!
I did not want short hair. I had just spent 2 years growing it, and that was the longest my hair had ever been. Not to mention, the healthiest (of all my years having a relaxer).
But, I had 17 reasons.
17 reasons why I didn't want it anymore.
I won't bore you with them all. But the very first, was this never fleeting urge to have virgin/unprocessed hair again.
When my "new growth" showed itself (because I'd go about 3 months before getting a relaxer touchup), I'd touch it & stare at it in the mirror, wondering what it'd look like, if I had it all over my head...just as long or even longer than my relaxed hair.
How would it feel to wake up with hair like that?!
In my heart, I knew it'd be beautiful.
Just as, if not more, beautiful.
I'd see women online & in real life with natural hair (rocking it), and would be afraid to look too long or make eye contact...for fear that looking would somehow convert me.
I'm so serious!!!
I was in denial about wanting it for myself. I did want it; but at the same time, I held on (firm) to the notion that my hair "looked better" relaxed.
The going back & forth was insane.
I weighed the pros & cons for months.
Ultimately, I didn't want another relaxer touch up. I never liked getting them anyway. Loved the results, but didn't want to go through the plethora of processes it took to process my hair pin straight & keep it in exceptional health at the same time.
And yet, I also didn't want to just chop off over 12 inches of hair.
I was certainly uncertain about what I was going to do.
As you may know, to go from relaxed to natural hair: you either, Big Chop (cut off all the processed hair at one time), or Transition (grow out the hair, and cut the relaxed ends off, either at a later date or every few months as new hair grows in).
So, I finally decided to wait.
I'd wait at least 2 or 3 years, so my hair would have plenty of time to grow out first. I'd trim off an inch of the relaxed ends, every three months, as an inch of virgin hair grew in. That way I could keep my length, which at the time, was a pretty big deal to me.
Well, I did this for about eight months...and couldn't wait anymore.
I was beyond excited!
Excited to see the hair I was born to have & the woman I was born to look like.
The photos are all during the grow out stages. Because I didn't care for wigs, weaves, extensions, or wearing my hair up; I did tons of braid outs to blend my duo-textured strands. I got bored & flat ironed once.